137 Months

As we packed up the all of Lola's angels after New Years,  Finley wanted to know what her angel ornament would look like next year. I love how he is already looking forward to next year...sometimes I wish I could have a child like perspective on everything just like Finley. He thinks next year, while my parent like mind wonders how next year will go. Will we all make it through this pandemic, will everyone be safe...When we lost Lola, I fully realized and grasped the concept how there may not be a tomorrow. Nothing is promised. Every moment and second counts. Even with my pregnancy with her, I wish I could have enjoyed it more, really taken in it. Of course I loved every kick I felt, sounds of her heartbeat, and  picture of Lola on her ultrasounds. But to really take it all in...that is what I want to aim for in 2021. Making every moment and second count, .just like Finley and Lola.

Love,

The Mother of an Angel