38 Months

Yesterday was the international wave of light...amazing to think about all those candles lit for the babies we said good bye to, too soon. When you read the remarks that parents, grandparents and friends leave about these special angels, you feel the pain through their words. For me, it makes me aware I am not alone in this world. That another mother out there understands my pain. They know the daily struggle. They are too familiar with the imperfect world we have to live in. One where you rejoice in your child here on earth and grieve daily for the one God has chosen for heaven. Some say he picks the best to bring to him, I am sure Lola was one of them. I am touched that so many of my friends and family continue to remember Lola. They lit a candle for her, send me kind notes and pictures. That encouragement and support is what we, we meaning angel parents need. Sometimes I think people thinking speaking of Lola is taboo, awkward, uncomfortable. For me it's not, it is how I cope. My life is not kept in bottle and either is Lola's story. She is and will always be a part of our lives. She has made me a better mother to Milo. She reminds me of patience and kindness, when otherwise I would not. She watches over her two brothers, Louie and Milo. She protects us and keeps us under her wings. When you meet someone like me or my husband or someone who has lost someone so special to them, talk about their angel once in awhile. You may warm their heart. Always Remember. Lola's Mom ps-JP found a penny today!!!always happens on the 16th...