35 Months

It's hard to believe we are approaching the 3 year mark of saying good bye to Lola...mind boggling all the things that have happened in three years. The emotional roller coaster that we go on daily, and yet it is the ride that will never end. Around each bend there is something new, something that sparks an emotion or breaks down the ride. But we keep going. Then we proceed to get off and ride again. I would like to tell the ride operator aka God, "I am done" but that doesn't work. Loosing Lola is part of our life and we somehow face our fears and emotions and we go. Sometimes holding on for dear life. We had some beautiful Lola moments on our trip...it is great to share Lola stories. -Carly and Josh's wedding, was the picture perfect day you could imagine for one of your closet friends. They were so happy and in love, they were beaming. She was a beautiful bride! They were so sweet and kind to remember Lola Grace on their wedding memory table. When I saw it, I broke down in tears. It was just so touching, it is the little things. Keeping her memory alive. When I approaced and thanked her about it, she explained if Lola was with us she would have been one of her flower girls, ahhhh sigh. She said Lola passing had such an effect on her. Her Mom a couple years ago gave her the Lola perfume and she says anytime she is having a bad day, she puts it on and it makes her smile. Things could be worse...with that I say it is amazing and she is an amazing friend. -My aunt has a beautiful angel sculpture in her yard. It is her Lola spot, as she calls it. This was the first time I had ever seen it. The angel has her hands open and stands quite tall. In it, JOan keeps the pennies she finds, I would say there are about 40 or more in her hands. She keeps them out there all year long....amazing even during the winter snow or wind storms not one has fallen out. Milo liked visiting the angels with aunt Joan. -On our visit to the Senior Doepkes, we walked through the greenroom in their community. They had purchased a tile on the floor that reads, "In Memory of Lola Grace Doepke." We always stop to look at it upon visits. Then very sweetly I heard Grandma Doepke say, "Hi Lola." It was just such a nice moment or an amazing Lola moment. It is nice to share stories since often I just write about emotions or thoughts,new memories are good. So back on the roller coaster we go... The ones who love and support us hop on for the ride with us. They hold your hand when you feel you can't face the day. They make you laugh when you would rather cry. They make you face your fears and most importantly they love Lola. Thanks for riding with us....tickets please.