20 Months...

What does loss mean....???

I thought this to myself tonight. Loss takes place in so many shapes and forms. Loss of Love, Loss of a house, Loss of a pet, Loss of your child...to each person their loss is the greatest of all. All losses hurt, though most mend themselves, well others will never be fixed.


To me, my devastation in life is the death of Lola. It feels not right, like how could this be part of the "plan"? As I read in our Easter Devotional from our church..."Parents aren't supposed to outlive their children." Hopelessness....

JP and I were blessed to spend the night today with a very special couple. The day after Thanksgiving, their 2.5 year old son passed away from a brain ainurism...one moment he was playing in the meadow and the next he tragically fainted in their living room. My heart hurts for this family and it was very healing for both of us to sit and just talk and talk about all the what ifs and buts....but also for the peace we have all accepted with our situations. They are beautiful people and I will cherish how they shared their little one with us. We saw pictures, videos...it is amazing how as we "grow" with what our lives have dealt us, we somehow learn to cope. I guess God gives us that hope back....

Elvira shared with me a letter she sent to all her friends and family...which read " We believe God sends friends as a blessing in times like these. You are holding us in your hands, helping us going through this sorrow." I don't think I could put it any better....

So for anyone that is dealing with a loss of any kind, if you look around and deep in your heart you will see all the love that surrounds you by the people that we call family and friends.....

August 16, 2009 changed my world forever. Saying Good Bye is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life but I know that Lola is a beautiful angel in heaven and thanks all the people that "held" her mom and dads hands during their journey of healing....which is never ending