A Special Day...

Today is a special day....the 16th. Today marks the day of 15 months for Lola and 2 weeks for her little brother Milo. Today I closed my eyes and imagined having the two of them here together, what a dream....!

In the hospital a couple weeks ago, it was nice to visit and have some of the same nurses as Lola. There were some I remembered and some I did not, but if they were part of her battle and shared our grief on that day...they let us know, almost saying, "we were there....we still care." Her picture sat on the window in a frame labeled angels...I loved when people would pick it up and look at her. We were celebrating such a blessed time with Milo but also remembering that our family is always a family of 5. Nothing will ever change that and though we can't hold Lola in our arms, we always hold in our thoughts and hearts.

Milo and I pray everyday together...well I do the praying outloud for now!

Dear Lord in Heaven,

Thank you for this day.
Please be with my big sister Lola in heaven, tell her we miss her and love her.
Please be with my dad to be healthy and happy.
Please be with my mom so she can be the best mom she can be.
Please be with my grandparents, family and all my friends...

in your name we pray.

Amen

I know Lola hears our prayers and feels our love...I also know 2 weeks ago the angels were all cheering, she made sure of it! She is a big sister angel!

She just is part of our everyday life and no matter how much things change...she is always our little girl, our angel up above and one of the loves of our lives.

"I'll find you in the morning sun and when the night is new
I'll be looking at the moon but I'll be seeing you....."

Happy day Lola!

Big Sister....

Lola has taught me so much in life...she has changed our lives.

She has made me appreciate the small things, give with all our hearts, and to be kind and patient with others...and that everyday is a gift from God.

She has also taught me to dream a little dream and no matter what to always keep the faith.

So as our lives change daily, I always know my little girl is smiling down from heaven, it is a great to have an angel by my side always.

I don't know what the future will bring but tommorow is a day I know that Lola will be with us.

In my heart, I know she is so excited to be a big sister and overjoyed! She sent me those pennies, I just know it!

We love you Lola, always my baby girl and firstborn child.