57 Months

Letting Go...

It's been a month of change it seems and sometimes embracing it is the hardest thing. We've been clearing rooms, cleaning closets, organizing and organizing.... For almost 5 years we have  kept all Lola's things. Clothes, bibs, blankets, toys, bedding...it just always seemed to hard to part with, it felt like it was a part of her with us. As we started pulling apart these overflowing boxes of items, we knew it was time to "let it go" and hopefully bring some happiness to others with it. My heart was broken as I tearfully folded each clothing or item to be placed into boxes and bags for new homes.  It was what I felt I had left of our dreams for her....so with that in the back of my mind, I saved myself a dream box.  Jp and I each picked out a few things we each wanted to keep, things that will always make us smile when we glance at it,  just our little piece of Lola.

 I learned a hard lesson that week that they were just "things" and I'll always have the memories  but most importantly the love, no one can ever take that away....

Surprisingly,  it was actually a great feeling to donate a majority of her items to the Wesley House in Key West.  They were so grateful and happy, that's what Lola would have wanted. We received a kind letter from them expressing their gratitude and  I will definitely place that in her baby book, it's  keeping her memory alive. We were able to share other items with one of our dear friends, who sends me pictures of her daughter in Lola gear or playing with Lola blankets. It honestly makes my heart smile. It didn't do any good collecting dust and now Lola can smile down on us knowing she spread some cheer and love, because of course that's what angels do.

It's amazing how we are still learning to be these parents of an angel... One day at a time, never forgetting.

Lots of Love-

Lola's Mommy