96 Months

Happy Birthday Sweet Lola.

It's been 8 years...
I treasure  the traditions we have started and continue every year on your birthday. I love that your brothers share the joy in it, from coloring you a special pink balloon, to giggling at eight bouncy balloons! It's our family.  I think this time of year I tend to focus on all the memories and time we have lost with Lola. All the cries, smiles, battles, whining, giggles, screams, the everything, the good and the bad. I'm not sure why this was her plan, why this was our plan and it still makes me angry. Eight years later it still does not make sense but I have to trust God on this one.

My day started by hearing that it was the 40th year celebration of Elvis Presley's death, I could not believe my Grandma Mary had never shared this with me- Elvis and Lola had something in common. It made me think of my Grandma, Mom and Lola. Sigh and a Smile, maybe Lola was having an Elvis dance Birthday party this year. She has more family to celebrate with....

It's hard to loose our family members and loved ones, losing Lola is the hardest thing ever and still is. I am so blessed this year to be able to purchase in her memory a granite book at bookworm gardens to celebrate this angelversary. It is something I have always wanted to do! ( thank you grandma) I look forward to my next visit to Sheboygan to enter this magical story garden and take a seat in the memory library, looking at her special book. A little Lola spot, I've always thought it would be so perfect.

Her memory lives on. From the cards, sweet messages and even a surprise of providing  meals to the needy in her memory at a soup kitchen today. A lot of people remembered you today Lola. You are so loved, missed and treasured always.

Love you to the moon and Back-

mother of an angel