Happy Birthday Lola~

Happy 2nd Birthday Lola!!!!!

I can't believe the day has come and gone already...replaying in my head a million times over holding her for the first time and too quickly having to say good bye. I can close my eyes and imagine our family. Louie, Lola and Milo all playing together, the best smiles, giggling..rolling on the floor, while lou of course would give them the occasional barks!Lola blowing out her candles on her cake and all of us singing and clapping along. What a wonderful world that would be...

2 years of saying hello to Lola everyday and endless nights of prayers. I just want some reassurance that she is okay...so I pray about it. I hope someone is there to cuddle her, hug her when she falls, and wipe away her tears when she misses her mom and dad. God only knows how much we miss her.

For her birthday we wanted her to know how much she means to us, she is never forgotten and I think we have started some Lola Bday traditions!!!

2 birthday balloons sent direct to heaven (one day delivery of course) to Lola filled with wishes.

2 Pink roses. One sent off in the deep blue ocean waters by her Daddy and One left at the church in Carmel.

A box full of the brighest crayons, fun colored pencils, endless notebooks, colorful erasers, rulers, folders and highliters for the LIFE after school tutoring program in Salinas. I think the "life" program was perfectly fitting for this celebration.

a beautiful pink rose bush planted in our backyard..I think our daily chats will happen here. JP planted it with such love. I can only imagine it will be a special spot for him also.

An of course, writing our birthday letters to Lola, one of my most favorite things. It is so emotional but healing. Each letter is placed in her angel book.

It was special to be together on this day.

We visited the most beautiful church also on Lola's day. We were meant to be there. Beautiful gardens, we found an angel statue hiding in the greens. Walking up the stairs to enter the church, you get a feeling this place is somewhat magical. It was just the 3 of us there. Then you look up and the mural in the sancturary is breathtaking. Cheribum Angels surrounding 2 women holding a baby...we were meant to be there. This is where we were to celebrate Lola's birthday. I just felt like in some sense she was there with us. It warms my heart just thinking about it.


There is never enough I could say about all the feelings and emotions that are wrapped up into her day. JP put it best in his letter to her...we miss you so much and we can only imagine how fun it is to dance in the clouds. We can't wait to dance in the clouds someday all together!

Love to Lola, Our angel, Our baby girl....

happy birthday!