A bookmark..

What a weird title I bet you are saying to yourself....I know :) Sometimes I have to throw you off a little bit!
Over the past couple months we have been recieving the magazine, Guideposts...I think it is a gift from someone but I have no idea who??? (so if it is you, let us know!) The stories are great, many inspirational...if you don't get the magazine I really would suggest it. Stories to warm the heart...sometimes I read them over and over again.

A couple weeks ago with the magazine came a bookmark, it reads the following:

God grant me the serenity to accept things I cannot change;courage to change the things I can;wisdom to know the difference....

I know we can all use this in our lives!!!!!

I pick up many books these days, start to read them, put them away, bring them back out again...but I love seeing this bookmark in one particular book I am in the midst of right now....

I guess I am in the process of accepting that Lola is gone, in heaven. I cannot change that.

I can however have her live in my heart through my memories with her. I am in the process of trying to change my outlook on life, 3 months and 23 days ago, I would have told you my life is over and I would rather sleep away the days then face them. Life without her at the time was not worth living....
Now the days are still hard, some harder than others, some maybe a little better. But I know I have to keep moving on with life for JP, Louie, My Family and My Friends...but let Lola  live through me. Maybe Live Life for Lola. I could say a million times over, Life is not fair, this is so unfair. Actually I could scream it at the top of my lungs but I know I have the courage to change the things I can or at least work on them!

I love Lola more than anything in this whole world...what a great angel we all have during this holiday season!