Tears in Heaven

Tears...I am not sure I ever was aware that I could cry as much as I do....crying for an angel.

Tears are said to heal the soul. The tears I shed for Lola are hard for me to describe, it is almost as they are different in a strange way. When I cry for her it is a streamline of drops that I actually can feel trickle down my face like raindrops running down a windowpane...large perfect formed drops. There is no forecast of when they will come, in fact the smallest thing can trigger my rainfalls.  Rarely can we touch an emotion, sure we can see someone smile, frown...be angry but tears are different. Those drops running down my face, sometimes they can take my breath away. I wish the tears we have all shed for her could bring her back, give her a pathway to us but maybe they can be a pathway to our hearts. I think she can feel the tears, she knows the sadness...though I know she wants us all to be happy, seize the day she would say! I don't mind crying now, it's okay. Like our own personal time together. Lots of people cry alone...if you pause for one moment and think about all the tears that are being shed at this very moment, it could be quite amazing. We are here learning life lessons...Lola had just learned them all a little sooner.

Thinking about tears, crying...(usually while I blog they come nonstop, being confronted with my emotions) made me think about a great Eric Clapton song. I remember listening to is as a child, my Dad liked him. To me there was no meaning then but now Tears In Heaven could be the words that I say to Lola. Listen, close your eyes....learn life lessons.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AscPOozwYA8