It is almost Christmas...the tree is up. 42 glorious angels hang on our tree. The white lights sparkle in the night. The hints of gold shimmer and radiate during the day. It is a beautiful tree, Lola would love it.I look forward to new additions this year. Those are my favorite gifts, as well as Lola's!
Our nightly prayers and hellos to Lola are such an important part of my life and daily routine. It is that moment, that I truly believe we share together, every 365 days of the year. I will never forget.
The next couple months are going to be very exciting for us...Lola's story will be shared with thousands!!! I look forward to sharing more about our process, healing in a way. The final product I hope to be amazing.
Everytime a bell rings an angel gets their wings.....think of Lola the next time you hear one this Christmas season.
Love.
Lola's Mom
Friday, December 16, 2011
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
27 months
It is hard to believe the holiday season is upon us already...hard to believe it is 27 months for Lola. The holidays aren't quite how they used to be. There still is the spirit of Christmas, but it is a time also where we miss even more the ones we love that are in heaven. Though I constantly have to remind myself that Lola is with us, just not the way we want her to be. That is the hardest part about this otherwise joyous season.
I look forward to putting up our angel tree. I love hearing the Christmas carols with the word angels in it. I enjoy seeing angels in store displays.
It will be fun to find our special angel ornament for 2011, I already have my eye on one!!!
We miss Lola so much....we pray for her everynight and extra special prayers always on the 16th. I always ask God to give her extra hugs on this day.
Much Love.
I look forward to putting up our angel tree. I love hearing the Christmas carols with the word angels in it. I enjoy seeing angels in store displays.
It will be fun to find our special angel ornament for 2011, I already have my eye on one!!!
We miss Lola so much....we pray for her everynight and extra special prayers always on the 16th. I always ask God to give her extra hugs on this day.
Much Love.
Sunday, October 16, 2011
26 Months
Yesterday was International Wave of Light Ceremony, hard to believe this was the third time we participated in this candle lighting for Lola. When we lit our candle I thought how amazing it was that for 24 hours, around the world candles were lit for our angels. The magic in candle is captivating. It is light in the darkness. A warmness in it's glow. I think angels have a light about them....
Whenever I look at Lola's picture I see so much beauty, peacefullness and that glow about her picture. She is simply gorgeous. She is a wonderful guardian angel to our whole family, especially little Milo. Sometimes I think Milo's joyfullness comes from Lola, one thing she sure has taught him is to love life. That is what she taught me...no matter what storms that come our way, live in the moment, treasure it always.
Happy to report Lola's pink rose bush is doing well. We were even able to cut some roses and place them by her picture last week. Warms my heart.
26 months later, Lola is with us everyday....light of our life.
Whenever I look at Lola's picture I see so much beauty, peacefullness and that glow about her picture. She is simply gorgeous. She is a wonderful guardian angel to our whole family, especially little Milo. Sometimes I think Milo's joyfullness comes from Lola, one thing she sure has taught him is to love life. That is what she taught me...no matter what storms that come our way, live in the moment, treasure it always.
Happy to report Lola's pink rose bush is doing well. We were even able to cut some roses and place them by her picture last week. Warms my heart.
26 months later, Lola is with us everyday....light of our life.
Friday, September 16, 2011
25 Months
It was kind of a dreary day here in Nor Cal, seems like the fog is never ending. We had a glimpse of sunshine today, one hour approximately. It must have been Lola sharing a little bit of heaven with us. I bet her days are full of adundant sunshine and pure joy, it is a nice thought. It sounds like the perfect spot to be. Heaven is really the unknown, the only guide we have to what it would be like is the Bible. So I think it is fair to let the imagination run wild with it...glorious, happiness, love, light, pureness, warm fuzzies...that is what it must be like for Lola.
Not a day goes by when we don't think of her. In fact a basket in Milo's room still is labeled, "LOLA" Hmmmmmmm, I could not possibly change it but only smile everyday when Milo grabs it to dump out all his toys. Little ways that Lola is part of our everyday.
One of our devotions this month spoke about Loss..it reminded us to think of all the blessings we have and how we loved Lola so much when she was with us. She was ready to be with God, and it should be our sense of peace... even though we miss her so.
Happy Day to Lola.
Not a day goes by when we don't think of her. In fact a basket in Milo's room still is labeled, "LOLA" Hmmmmmmm, I could not possibly change it but only smile everyday when Milo grabs it to dump out all his toys. Little ways that Lola is part of our everyday.
One of our devotions this month spoke about Loss..it reminded us to think of all the blessings we have and how we loved Lola so much when she was with us. She was ready to be with God, and it should be our sense of peace... even though we miss her so.
Happy Day to Lola.
Tuesday, August 16, 2011
Happy Birthday Lola~
Happy 2nd Birthday Lola!!!!!
I can't believe the day has come and gone already...replaying in my head a million times over holding her for the first time and too quickly having to say good bye. I can close my eyes and imagine our family. Louie, Lola and Milo all playing together, the best smiles, giggling..rolling on the floor, while lou of course would give them the occasional barks!Lola blowing out her candles on her cake and all of us singing and clapping along. What a wonderful world that would be...
2 years of saying hello to Lola everyday and endless nights of prayers. I just want some reassurance that she is okay...so I pray about it. I hope someone is there to cuddle her, hug her when she falls, and wipe away her tears when she misses her mom and dad. God only knows how much we miss her.
For her birthday we wanted her to know how much she means to us, she is never forgotten and I think we have started some Lola Bday traditions!!!
2 birthday balloons sent direct to heaven (one day delivery of course) to Lola filled with wishes.
2 Pink roses. One sent off in the deep blue ocean waters by her Daddy and One left at the church in Carmel.
A box full of the brighest crayons, fun colored pencils, endless notebooks, colorful erasers, rulers, folders and highliters for the LIFE after school tutoring program in Salinas. I think the "life" program was perfectly fitting for this celebration.
a beautiful pink rose bush planted in our backyard..I think our daily chats will happen here. JP planted it with such love. I can only imagine it will be a special spot for him also.
An of course, writing our birthday letters to Lola, one of my most favorite things. It is so emotional but healing. Each letter is placed in her angel book.
It was special to be together on this day.
We visited the most beautiful church also on Lola's day. We were meant to be there. Beautiful gardens, we found an angel statue hiding in the greens. Walking up the stairs to enter the church, you get a feeling this place is somewhat magical. It was just the 3 of us there. Then you look up and the mural in the sancturary is breathtaking. Cheribum Angels surrounding 2 women holding a baby...we were meant to be there. This is where we were to celebrate Lola's birthday. I just felt like in some sense she was there with us. It warms my heart just thinking about it.
There is never enough I could say about all the feelings and emotions that are wrapped up into her day. JP put it best in his letter to her...we miss you so much and we can only imagine how fun it is to dance in the clouds. We can't wait to dance in the clouds someday all together!
Love to Lola, Our angel, Our baby girl....
happy birthday!
I can't believe the day has come and gone already...replaying in my head a million times over holding her for the first time and too quickly having to say good bye. I can close my eyes and imagine our family. Louie, Lola and Milo all playing together, the best smiles, giggling..rolling on the floor, while lou of course would give them the occasional barks!Lola blowing out her candles on her cake and all of us singing and clapping along. What a wonderful world that would be...
2 years of saying hello to Lola everyday and endless nights of prayers. I just want some reassurance that she is okay...so I pray about it. I hope someone is there to cuddle her, hug her when she falls, and wipe away her tears when she misses her mom and dad. God only knows how much we miss her.
For her birthday we wanted her to know how much she means to us, she is never forgotten and I think we have started some Lola Bday traditions!!!
2 birthday balloons sent direct to heaven (one day delivery of course) to Lola filled with wishes.
2 Pink roses. One sent off in the deep blue ocean waters by her Daddy and One left at the church in Carmel.
A box full of the brighest crayons, fun colored pencils, endless notebooks, colorful erasers, rulers, folders and highliters for the LIFE after school tutoring program in Salinas. I think the "life" program was perfectly fitting for this celebration.
a beautiful pink rose bush planted in our backyard..I think our daily chats will happen here. JP planted it with such love. I can only imagine it will be a special spot for him also.
An of course, writing our birthday letters to Lola, one of my most favorite things. It is so emotional but healing. Each letter is placed in her angel book.
It was special to be together on this day.
We visited the most beautiful church also on Lola's day. We were meant to be there. Beautiful gardens, we found an angel statue hiding in the greens. Walking up the stairs to enter the church, you get a feeling this place is somewhat magical. It was just the 3 of us there. Then you look up and the mural in the sancturary is breathtaking. Cheribum Angels surrounding 2 women holding a baby...we were meant to be there. This is where we were to celebrate Lola's birthday. I just felt like in some sense she was there with us. It warms my heart just thinking about it.
There is never enough I could say about all the feelings and emotions that are wrapped up into her day. JP put it best in his letter to her...we miss you so much and we can only imagine how fun it is to dance in the clouds. We can't wait to dance in the clouds someday all together!
Love to Lola, Our angel, Our baby girl....
happy birthday!
Saturday, July 16, 2011
23 Months
One month away from the big 2 for Lola...just seems so unreal. This month marked 2 years since we have moved out to California, all those hopes and dreams we had then for her.Pregnant and moving, a crazy Mom I was! All the excitement, getting her "second" nursery ready...only for everything to turn into our worst nightmire. I always, and will always wonder if things would have been different if we would have never made the venture out here, probably why California will never be home for us.....
Grandma Jean or as Milo calls her "nana" :) is here to visit us, she made a cake for Lola today. She made the same exact one week before Lola's due date calling it her pre-birthday arrival cake...we all enjoyed our piece, it brings back a lot of memories. It is like if I close my eyes I can picture it all, I vividly remember the last night I spent with Lola kicking in my belly. Watching a movie with JP, curled up on the tan couch and even talking to his dear friend John Leis about his new baby, and how Landon and Lola would be great buddies! It is weird how one moment can be filled with so much happiness and the next it is gone.
I guess that is why we hold on to those memories so tight, they make you feel warm and fuzzy for a moment in time...
I will remember those fun itty kicks Lo.....
Happy Day Lola!
Grandma Jean or as Milo calls her "nana" :) is here to visit us, she made a cake for Lola today. She made the same exact one week before Lola's due date calling it her pre-birthday arrival cake...we all enjoyed our piece, it brings back a lot of memories. It is like if I close my eyes I can picture it all, I vividly remember the last night I spent with Lola kicking in my belly. Watching a movie with JP, curled up on the tan couch and even talking to his dear friend John Leis about his new baby, and how Landon and Lola would be great buddies! It is weird how one moment can be filled with so much happiness and the next it is gone.
I guess that is why we hold on to those memories so tight, they make you feel warm and fuzzy for a moment in time...
I will remember those fun itty kicks Lo.....
Happy Day Lola!
Thursday, June 16, 2011
22 Months...
Make yourself familiar with angels, and behold them frequently in spirit;for without being seen, they are present with you.
I always feel like somehow Lola makes her presence felt with us...or else we are out there looking for it. On our wedding anniversary we spent the day at the aquarium, a little lunch and then we headed back to our car. Right as we approached it, I spotted a penny...I was SO excited! I yelled out to JP and he found 2 other ones, one penny for each of us. I remember looking up at the sky and saying thanks to little Lola. I am not sure anniversary presents get better than that! It also made me feel complete for a second in time, though to many we look like a family of 3, we are and always will be a family of 4. ( well 4.5 counting Lou Dog!) I am blessed with one angel here on earth and one angel in heaven.Sometimes I even sign cards with all of our names.
I already have the 2 year anniversay anxiety. So much has changed, so many dreams were lost, some regained...we hit the lowest and the highest peak. With I suspect many more mountains in life to climb, and someone up above to guide the way.
22 Months Baby Girl!
Hugs and Kisses!
Mom
I always feel like somehow Lola makes her presence felt with us...or else we are out there looking for it. On our wedding anniversary we spent the day at the aquarium, a little lunch and then we headed back to our car. Right as we approached it, I spotted a penny...I was SO excited! I yelled out to JP and he found 2 other ones, one penny for each of us. I remember looking up at the sky and saying thanks to little Lola. I am not sure anniversary presents get better than that! It also made me feel complete for a second in time, though to many we look like a family of 3, we are and always will be a family of 4. ( well 4.5 counting Lou Dog!) I am blessed with one angel here on earth and one angel in heaven.Sometimes I even sign cards with all of our names.
I already have the 2 year anniversay anxiety. So much has changed, so many dreams were lost, some regained...we hit the lowest and the highest peak. With I suspect many more mountains in life to climb, and someone up above to guide the way.
22 Months Baby Girl!
Hugs and Kisses!
Mom
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